來美國一年了。一年前，我在開學前兩個月就忍不住先來報到( 用B1簽證，等開學前一個月才再使用F1入境)。
貴婦英英美代子的生活過了兩個月，始終拖著拖著不想去考駕照，因為做為一個外國人，要在這裡考駕照要準備的東西好多，那時我覺得好麻煩。
開學後，學校課業也很忙，更讓我沒心思準備這回事。但是這次暑假，為了再次擁有獨立行動能力，我乖乖的坐下來讀了三小時的交通規則，然後就到DMV去考試了。
1. 準備文件:要有六點，護照+I20 算3點，學生證+成績單，銀行提款卡這些也都算。如果沒有SSN，要到International Students and Scholars Services 去申請"Request for Status"會拿到一封信證明你沒有申請SSN的資格，拿著這封信到Social Security Office辦理，會拿到一張無法發給你SSN的信。
今天很幸運一直遇到好的人!
1.總行常幫助我解決各種疑難雜症的每位姊姊
2.受訓一整天，晚上回家後準備上瑜珈課。九點的課，八點先出門，準備幫機車加滿油。因為已經到大ㄉㄟˋ
不加不行。我一向害怕在台北騎車，路不熟車又多，尤其承德路後面大家車速超快。但附近只有那裡有加油站，只好硬上。去程還好，
"窮人和富人不同之處:窮人沒有想成為有錢人的野心"-- FROM 讓錢自己流進來
買東西不需要看價錢，有充裕時間享受假期，與家人、朋友共度珍貴的時刻。
不需工作也能有的收入，叫持續性收入，如何創造持續性收入?
真正想完成的事情?期限?完成後的樣子?
1.工作:和諧 專業 自信 主管職 (PROSPEROUS AND ABUNDANT)
Here are my resolutions for the year of 2010:
Workwise:Get license,Promote credit card:20
2/28 TOEIC (DONE)
3/14 內控(DONE)
4/18 外幣保單
Dear God,
Was that you who gave me the challenge today? What goes around comes around. I was trapped in this delimma where your friend can be your enemy in disguise. I hate to confront with others or to hurt people intentionally. Has this become my weakness? Coz I feel I have fallen into a point of powerlessness. No one is on my side. Was this the challenge you gave me?
What can I do to live a prosperous, stable life? "Prosperosus" and "Abundant".
Dear God,
I am sad that the paryer session doesn't last long. Was it a sign of me being too busy?
I sometimes grumble in mind that can you be more powerful, can you help me to be smart and efficient and release me from that heavy
loaded work. But I got disappointed. And just like that...a year ended.
Dear God,
Thank you for the good times I had on the weekends. I am back to work today and feel normal even after the betrayal.
I messed up ...a little in the office today...not totally me but mostly me and went behind schedule a lot today.
Dear God, is there a way I could catch up?
I am reaching my limit of being strong. Can I rely on you? Is it going to be a helping hand?
Dear God,
Have I really been left out?
This never happens in my life before. What's wrong with me?
or what's wrong with them?
I am always true to others. Is it no longer the creed for treating people or to be precise the people you work with?
Dear God,
I woke up this morning and found myself being so happy and grateful.
Thank you for letting me having a family that loves me so much. My grandma even got up to prepare noodles for me.
But God, I am so afraid of not being able to handle my job today. I am so afraid of making mistakes.
Please help me and be with me.
Dear God,
Please help me to know more about you, your character and your words. Please reveal more of you to me.
Please help me to believe that I am worthy of your love and that you will be with me and help me in my work.
Just like you did to the Isarelites.
P.S. It is in my culture that modesty is a very important virtue. My people value modesty so much that when we do good deeds or perform well, we do not even dare to accept compliments openly. We call it "showing off" when someone actually jumps out for the credit. But you want your followers to glorify your name? Why is that important? If you are so good, people would know effortlessly.
It all started in one autumn morning casual talk with my cousin.
I got the message of a English bible study lesson near my place and thus started my Sunday morning church visiting. I started as a noe-believer, a challenger (which I still am now), and a narrow-minder. Week after week, debate after debate, the Christian God has gradually occupied my heart. So I started to question myself, why not give it a try , to be more open-minded and establish this relationship?
I knew there was God, but in my culture, my upbrining, there was Godess Ma Zhu, who always gave me comforting instructions when I asked. It was like cheating on her when I tried to establish this relationship with God so things were tough for me in the beginning. But with the gentle encouragement of my bible teacher, a good friend as well, I started my journey of quest. She said if you had doubts, why not pray, why not ask God and see what he has to answer.
While I was walking my dog this morning, with fear for the days unknown challenge ahead at work, I tried to ask him some questions. Suddenly, this idea popped up. Since I love writing and want to keep writing as a habit, why not write about my dobts and thoughts or inspirations I got? Looking familiar? It is kind of like Julie in the movie "Julie and Julia" just that my mentor is God and I have nothing to cook except my burning doubts for life, love, money...etc.
So I will try to write down my prayer and keep it original, short and as interesting as possible. But you have to forgive me since humor is a whole new class that I just start learning.
12月4號星期五。又不是黑色星期五也一樣慘烈。 貴婦變民婦。今天看了EMBA雜誌，發現有個不錯的觀念:Feedforward, not feedback。
我們現在參加活動，很習慣填寫回饋單，反映參與的情形。但這篇的作者卻說，前饋比回饋更有效。什麼是前饋，相較於回饋，當然是指在事前就給出的建議。因為回饋隱含著事情已經過去了，無法改變。但是前饋，卻可以讓人在事前先聽取眾多人的意見，在真正進行的時候更有信心。
另外，作者也說幫助別人做對，比做錯後幫忙修正，更有效。這點和我以前的認知完全不同。
根據作者的觀念，如果等到做錯後再說，等於你一直在等待錯誤的出現，反而更容易引起錯誤。(似乎也符合吸引力法則所說的) 但我一直認為在錯誤發生的當下說出錯誤的原因，和正確的方法，更能讓犯錯的人印象深刻，從而避免再次發生。
可是如果想深入一點，這樣做是不是只是展示了自己身為教導者的優勢呢?只是在滿足自己被崇拜的渴望，也建立起一種威權。我教新人的時候，有人督導時，在犯錯的時候提醒他，記住了，下一次，他自己一個人時，這個錯誤還是會發生。並且在發生的時候，新人會有一種難堪、罪惡的感覺，覺得自己很笨，覺得帶他的人很厲害。然後錯誤就不會再發生了。可是這樣的教導方式對於接收的人來說是一種屈辱的經驗。或許有效，但在被教的人心理卻有陰影留下。
沒想到脫離了學校的期末考週之後，開始上班也有地獄週。這名詞好久都沒聽到了。
下個星期，稽核檢查。在爆發諸多弊案之後的此時，我想所有人都是忐忑不安的。不過我們一切都依規辦哩，一定安全過關的啦。害怕的是，前面要接客，後面要應付大胃口的稽核大人們提出的眾多菜單，幫他們買菜備料、蒐集食材，也是浩大工程啊。人客們，如果你們去到銀行發現後台有陌生人，行員臉色都很僵硬，請多多體諒了，因為他們正在內憂外患夾攻中，沒辦法分神微笑了。
除了稽核檢查外，另外一件轟轟烈烈的大事就是下周有新客戶要跟我們合作了。前置從文件準備、客戶資料查詢、電腦資料登打，都是在我們時間外才能做的，which means 下星期有班可加了。不過，有生意上門，還是件值得高興的事情。
最近的發現，如果起床抱著愉快的心情，到了廁所刷牙洗臉也能笑笑的對著鏡子，那麼這一天將會非常美好。
反之，如果起床帶著起床氣，到了廁所也是滿肚子怨氣的話，那很難有好的心情準備好自己面對這一天。
古人說一日之計在於晨，我覺得還挺有幾分道理。
早上有個美好的開始，覺得一天就會很順利。可能一方面自己需要比較多時間來醞釀情緒、披上鐵石的盔甲，才能不受主管、客人的影響，來面對一天工作的好事、鳥事。所以"餘裕"對我來說真的很重要。不喜歡匆匆忙忙開始這一天，匆忙的到公司，趕最後一分鐘刷卡。我喜歡自己像個貴婦一樣，有自己的時間，陪狗狗散步、輕鬆喝茶吃早餐，邊放著音樂，閱讀需要集中精神才能閱讀的書籍，開始這一天。當然，時間一到還是要乖乖闔上書本出門去。
最近很幸運有機會看了之前轟動一時暢銷書"秘密"的影片，內容感覺和人生的四大秘密有點像，最重要的是心智的力量。
我們的心有超乎我們想像的力量。只要我們不斷的、 強烈的渴望，宇宙會有方式回應我們的需求。
"Your wish is my command "--宇宙像神燈精靈，主人的需求就是他的目標。
"If you've been there on the mind, you'll go there on the body" 心智到達的地方,身體也會到達
所以整個秘密很重要的一點先相信你已經擁有形象化、視覺化、你想擁有的畫面，那麼不久後這就將成真!
最近負責帶新人，觀察每個人對待新人的方式都不一樣。有人諄諄教誨，有人是下馬威式的當頭棒喝，教法各有不同。心思也不同。
帶新人之後才明白當老人的複雜心情，一方面擔心新人無法很快上手，拖累全體。一方面又怕新人太快上手，搶了自己的風采。(對，原諒我是個凡夫俗子，雖然努力修煉，還是免不了愛比較的心情)。此外，看到生嫩、努力的新人，也讓自己忍不住必須反省自己，踏入社會後越來越平穩的生活，讓自己的心也懶的精進，我想這或許是我們都需要一些後浪來推前浪的原因?
行員日記。 (3)